| If you could have seen my smile then you would have known, but the curtains are pulled shut and the windows are crashing in, a mess never to be cleaned just to sit there as a memory of what was and what could have been. hidden in a place where the light shines dim only to be revealed by your heart, full and open to new things, smiles that light up a galaxy from a distance unknown. pictures never to be devloped for the fear of what it was, or what it may have been. paintings on the wall melting from the emptiness that once surrounded a well lit room full of hearts waiting to be loved, waiting to find the one that matches perfectly into the puzzle of your life that only you throw under the rug to be swept up in the confusion of your mind, overtaking the heart and the soul, prayers left unprayed and unanswered falling away into the vast open seas of a long journey that has yet to begin. the simple sound of a beating heart getting strongr by your voice alone is just a stone skip away... :0) |
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| The days go by and i long for your voice only to hear a sound that comforts my soul, a passion for the words thrown across the white vast open pages that only my heart will understand. An excitement that runs through my veins, deep into the depths of my soul that only you kow how to reach. An understanding of my ways that not a single other would even begin to try and see...only you...you leave me in a silence of excitment and breathless... If I could express anymore the feelings that have built up inside me these pages would explode off this screen into tiny crystals that could peirce the heart. |
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| So One Of My Best Friends In The World Just Moved To Texas On Thanksgiving... Im Really Really Sad... Not Sure What To Do... Not A Day HAs Gone By That I Haven't Cried... Im Really Sad About This... A Little On The Verge Of Depressed But Not Exactly... Sigh... I Miss Her Mucho Amounts... |
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| Things are starting to Look up... Im happy... Im pretty sure im falling in Love but its just between my Heart and God... Im finally starting to do things right... ya I slip every now and then but who doesn't... im starting to see things as they should be and not as I want them... Im giving it all away to God and starting to trust Him fully... a way I like to look at it is that im not walking blindly down this narrow path but allowing Gods light to shine and guide me through... I have finally confesed to myself and to one other person about something I have been denying for a long time... nothing bad ... just hard to admit with all the doubtful people out there... and let me just tell you it makes my heart smile... i've been daily writing my thoughts down on paper since i haven't any regular access to the internet but i like it here it helps in a small way keep me accountible b/c i know whos eyes can read this... on paper only my own and Gods ... which should be frightful enough... but in the world knowing who has access it helps in small amounts... now i just need to make time to dig farther into the word... to all my friends out there I love you and keep me in prayer... im trying... |
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| I Love Jesus...and You... If I come Back will you love me to? |
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